starting month...

So I already started school and I'm very excited. I have all the classes I want and my grades, even though I just started, are looking great. My best friend, Giovana, is in only one of my classes but that’s okay because I have Micaela in a couple of others. There are new teachers and the same old ones. One that I truly and honestly hate, Ms.Rosado. She’s a &%#$ and needs some #$%@ if you know what I mean. She always has something to say and cant ever just be in a good fucking mood. Like bitch be happy for once it ain’t hard to do. There are also some old teachers still here, one which is my favorite, Ms. Harris or now known as Ms. al Tiye, which I will never get why she changed her name but w.e.


Back at home there’s nothing new. My little brother is in school. Where he is learning, get this SPANISH AND LAW. My little baby is so fucking smart, I’m muy proud of him. On another note my love life went down the hill when me and my ex got in a big fight. Lets just say, he’s AN ASSHOLE, JERK, DICKHEAD, and so much more. He only thinks about him self and him self only. FUCKING GREEDY SON OF A BITCH. But w.e. its all good, cause I got a new boo and I’m happy with the new one I have.


I’ve yet to start the college shyt up because in school with the little homework I get, there’s greater work that I need to do. Like this big ass Latin project that I need to do in order to pass. BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! Fuck Latin! NAH I LOVE LATIN. I just suck at the reading and writing it shyt. Maybe I should get Rosita Stone.


On a better note, I went to see Wicked with my two friends Micaela and Sade. I already read the book so I really wanted to see how the play was on board way. AND IT WAS FUCKING GREAT. It was the funniest shyt and the best songs. My Music teacher, sadly said she doesn’t like it very much but it has a “really good sound”. -_- . Like chicken head plz, who are you!? Yeah you’re the Music Teacher who can only teach us to appreciate the dam music. SMH.

I'm gonna make IT!

"The lower you fall, the higher you'll fly."

The end of the year is closer then most people think. Yeah, its still 2009, but soon it'll be 2010 & I'll be off to college. What college? I don't know & I'm not sure. But I know for a fact I want it to be out of state. See I have this thing, this dream, that I want to start a new life somewhere else. Even if that means moving to another state. I think four years in another state would do me well. Only problem is my friends, close friends, all want to stay in New York. I can't do that. I need some space, some more freedom. My mom has always been very over protective with me. She barely let's me out. Not saying I'm on lock but she be just acting funny when I wanna go out, only sometimes though.

I'm thinking about looking at Cali, FL & some states down south. Like Duke, Spelmen, University of California, Berkly and Barry. All great schools, all hard to get into, and all very expensive. That's the most important thing I'm worried aboutM Money, and if I'm going to have enough to go to college of my choice. Which would be great if I could. College is such an important step in my life. I do plan on being something great, a Dentist, a CSI, anything that I would love to do and getting paid great doing it. Lol.....

Well we'll just see what happens at the end of the year ;) ‪​‬ ‪​

New Look, New me?

“You buy furniture. You tell yourself, this is the last sofa I will ever need in my life. Buy the sofa, then for a couple years you're satisfied that no matter what goes wrong, at least you've got your sofa issue handled. Then the right set of dishes. Then the perfect bed. The drapes. The rug. Then you're trapped in your lovely nest, and the things you used to own, now they own you.”


So since my new school is starting ＆ shyt I'm thinking I need a new look ＆ more then one way. First of all, I want a new hair color ＆ style. Second, new body. YEAH! I've been working out like crazy. Almost everyday I've been running on MY MONSTER treadmill, for about 40 minutes or 30 minutes with my music blasting. So by Oct, hopefully, I've had lost a couple of pounds. Im trying to get down to like 150 pounds. That's gonna take a lot but I think I can do it. I know some girls who need to fucking lose weight ! Fat bitches ! That's one thing I don't like about some girls. Bitches, who be fat ＆ they their the cutest shyt in the world. LIKE MAMITA, you look like a fucking whale what the hell ! NOT cute ! I had a fat friend. She was cool, but that bitch threw soda on me ! Like can you say immature? ＆ the reason why this bitch threw that shyt on me was because one of my other friends wanted to fight her ! Sweetie, you write things on your away msg ＆ you expect for people to not flip? She did that dumb shyt to me ! OMG if I had that away msg still I would show you. Like shorty tried to go ohhdeeee hard on me about some shyt, deleting 1 Group off her buddy list. Like its ovi. it wasn't for that reason. Personally I think she was being a fucking haterrrr! Hating off of what? you may ask. I DONT KNOW But that stupid girl was being the only hater ! But im getting off of topic. So yeah, I need a new hair color. So what's your thoughts? Should I go back to being a Blonde, Multi Color, or like really Light Brown? Yeah I used to be a pretty Blonde once upon a time. But no longer am I . What I don't get is these girls out here doing too MUCH color to their hair?! ＆ IT BE THE UGLY BITCHES who feel the need to be all color creative. Like they all got together ＆ said "lets all look like colorful dicks" cheeesee* bitch please ! IN NEED OF A NEW LOOK, NEW LIFE, NEW ME. :)

signed Amanda Tatianna Alequin

you had me at HELLO!

“What I want is to be needed. What I need is to be indispensable to somebody. Who I need is somebody that will eat up all my free time, my ego, my attention. Somebody addicted to me. A mutual addiction.”

Me ＆ my EX, Kvon, have recently started speaking again. Am I glad? Yeah. Am I scared? Hell Yeah. Why am I scared?! Because me ＆ this boy have been having problems since the beginning. We can never see eye to eye, almost fight about everything. But we can still say I love you ＆ truly mean it. Isn't that amazing?! He's my... well I dont know what he is, but I know he means something right?! I've dated, talked, seen, chilled with a lot of guys, but this one makes me feel s certain way. Some way I've never felt before. We met threw a EX friend that both of us hate.

NOTE: The bitch we both knew, he hated her. HATED! With a capital H . I think that was a sign I should had seen coming. He used to tell me how she annoyed him.

But anyway, I didn't like him when we first met. I thought he was the biggest loser in the world. The first night I met him. Me ＆ my friends clowned his sneakers. JOKES on me! Cause he got me in the end. Another funny thing about me ＆ him. Was how we started dating. We spoke to each other for about two months. I was in involved with another boy. John. OMG ! Don't let me get started about him! He was a "roller blader". WORST kind of guy I could had gotten my self involved with. But do you know why I got myself involved with him? It was because he was something new. BUT, I fucked myself over...............Anyway long story short, I cut him out my life ＆ got with Kvon. (the boy I've been talking about from the beginning) He asked me out, over the phone. ＆ til this day he makes jokes about how, when he asked me I said yes really fast! LIE ! lmfao. Maybe I did, im not sure, but I liked him so much. He was my little basketball player. Cutest thing about him ＆ me, is that he's a COUPLE Of HOURS Older then me. Yes, his birthday is May 31st, ＆ mine is June 1st. Cute right? OMG me ＆ this boy have been having so many problems. This is for him......

No matter what we go threw ＆ all the problems we've had, no matter what I will always have love for you. You make me smile, laugh, get mad, cry, you do everything a husband would do. Not all relationships, even when its not a dating relationship is hard to handle. ＆ me ＆ yours was the most hardest. Even when you had another girl we were still involved saying our I love you's . I dont know if it was true or not but I felt something. It was so hard to get over you but I did. ＆ you came back in my life ＆ I allowed it. I'm going to take it slow ＆ not rush. But baby, I want you to know I will always have love for you. You are something special you are the only boy I've eve allowed to get to me ＆ touch my heart. ♥. only you can make me feel.......loved, happy, sad, joy, beautiful, wonderful, like a woman, gentle, honest, comfortable. ＆ so MUCH MORE!

you will always remain in my ♥, you can NEVER forget your FIRST LOVE :-*.

signed Amanda Tatianna Alequin

SEX, LOVE, GAMES & TOYS!

"I thought we were a real love relationship. I did. I was very invested in love, but it was just this long long sex thing that could end at any moment because after all, it's just about getting off. Almost all the time, you tell yourself you're loving somebody when you're just using them. This only looks like love."

What I dont get is why sex and relationship's always have to be two different things? Can anyone tell me why??

So one thing about guys that I've learned over the years is that their all horn dogs, even when they say their not. Take BEEP, at first he was this great guy that I could had really seen myself dating and in a real realtionship. But instead it turned out he liked my body and wanted to use it for more then just hugs. Talking about we can be cuddy buddies! Like one i dont want to be your fucking cuddy buddy. Two WTF is a CUDDY BUDDY. & three you played your self BRO !

WHAT THE HELL IS THAT ALL ABOUT ANY WAY?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Why cant simple girls find simple guys and both want the same thing, before the big S word comes into play. Yeah, we're all human and we all have needs. But sometimes your needs are more then just physical. And sometimes the perfect guy YOU THINK you met turns out to be a totall asshole. Not saying all the guys I've dated were total assholes, but some more then others. And I'm not saying that BEEP was one of them but I'm saying, you thyink you know some one and then BAM it hits you like a ton of bricks. SMH!!!

signed Amanda Tatianna Alequin

my first Blog =p, iBlog.

"All God does is watch us and kill us when we get boring. We MUST NEVER, ever be boring."

So,

Hello everyone. My name is Amanda ＆ this is my new Blog. I've never had a Blog before so im not sure about what to do. My beautiful ＆ wonderful friend Ebony had made me one, just cause I seen her with one. :]

Its very interesting about people with Blogs. I don't get how people with Blogs can tell their life on open Blogs ＆ allow the world to see it. But I believe Blog are just ways you can express your self ＆ let other viewers see the real you .

This summer has been so crazy to me. I had summer school but I didn't care. I was trying to get into school in East Orange Highschool, New Jersey. But when I went to sign up for the summer school they told me it was full -_- . I mean dam how many dumb asses had to go summer school in East Orange !? So instead I went to Normas Thomas in New York. First day of my class I got lost, lmfao. But these Spanish boys helped me too my class. Where one of my fellow class mates from my school Saint Michael's, Kassandra, was there. Thank God I wasn't alone. My next class was Chem. Man I hate Chem but it was w.e. My bestfriend Giovana sadly didn't have classes with me, but I seen her after classes were done :].

However, besides the whole Summer School shyt, my summer was great. I enjoyed it very much. Instead of the boy drama that I got myself into. Ugh ! MEN ! Their honestly dumb ＆ do dumb shyt ! 24/7. See before the summer started me ＆ my ex broke up kinda. We were almost together for 2 yrs, guess we couldn't make it. ＆ the day I finally let him go I told myself "this is summer, I will find a new boy ;]". My ass did more then find a new one, I found a couple. So that meant drama, drama, drama, ＆ drama. BEEP, of course was my favorite ;]. Funny thing about BEEP, I dont know how me ＆ him even met. ＆ im not kidding. One day we just started talking on aim, ＆ then it started with phone calls. He's so funny ＆ he's sweet. Other CRAZY thing about me ＆ BEEP is this nigga knows another guy I used to talk to, can you say drama. But me ＆ BEEP barely talk now, so I just moved on. Too some new ones. Had my fun, tears, arguments, joy, you name it. But love works in funny ways. My ex, Mr. Jersey Number 4 came back. I won't lie I was happy, over the 2 months we didn't speak I missed him like crazy. But I never showed it or tried to think about it. The more I thought about him the worst I felt. We loved each other so muchhh. But we just couldn't deal with one other. But when he came back, he said his sorry's ＆ explained how he had changed. We been talking, nothing serious, but I wonder if its going to get serious?!

On a better note I met a new friend named Ebony, yeah she's crazy as fuck but I do love her. Its funny because I recently found out when she "knew" about me threw a mutal friend, Giovana, she didn't like me very much. Like I gave a shyt though, who the fuck was Ebony? Who the fuck cared? But now she's my Ebony, in more then one way ;] .

So school starts for me next week, ＆ im ubber excited . But that's all I really have to say, so thinks for reading. ＆ stay in tuned ;) .

signed Amanda Tatianna Alequin