“What I want is to be needed. What I need is to be indispensable to somebody. Who I need is somebody that will eat up all my free time, my ego, my attention. Somebody addicted to me. A mutual addiction.”
Me ＆ my EX, Kvon, have recently started speaking again. Am I glad? Yeah. Am I scared? Hell Yeah. Why am I scared?! Because me ＆ this boy have been having problems since the beginning. We can never see eye to eye, almost fight about everything. But we can still say I love you ＆ truly mean it. Isn't that amazing?! He's my... well I dont know what he is, but I know he means something right?! I've dated, talked, seen, chilled with a lot of guys, but this one makes me feel s certain way. Some way I've never felt before. We met threw a EX friend that both of us hate.
NOTE: The bitch we both knew, he hated her. HATED! With a capital H . I think that was a sign I should had seen coming. He used to tell me how she annoyed him.
But anyway, I didn't like him when we first met. I thought he was the biggest loser in the world. The first night I met him. Me ＆ my friends clowned his sneakers. JOKES on me! Cause he got me in the end. Another funny thing about me ＆ him. Was how we started dating. We spoke to each other for about two months. I was in involved with another boy. John. OMG ! Don't let me get started about him! He was a "roller blader". WORST kind of guy I could had gotten my self involved with. But do you know why I got myself involved with him? It was because he was something new. BUT, I fucked myself over...............Anyway long story short, I cut him out my life ＆ got with Kvon. (the boy I've been talking about from the beginning) He asked me out, over the phone. ＆ til this day he makes jokes about how, when he asked me I said yes really fast! LIE ! lmfao. Maybe I did, im not sure, but I liked him so much. He was my little basketball player. Cutest thing about him ＆ me, is that he's a COUPLE Of HOURS Older then me. Yes, his birthday is May 31st, ＆ mine is June 1st. Cute right? OMG me ＆ this boy have been having so many problems. This is for him......
No matter what we go threw ＆ all the problems we've had, no matter what I will always have love for you. You make me smile, laugh, get mad, cry, you do everything a husband would do. Not all relationships, even when its not a dating relationship is hard to handle. ＆ me ＆ yours was the most hardest. Even when you had another girl we were still involved saying our I love you's . I dont know if it was true or not but I felt something. It was so hard to get over you but I did. ＆ you came back in my life ＆ I allowed it. I'm going to take it slow ＆ not rush. But baby, I want you to know I will always have love for you. You are something special you are the only boy I've eve allowed to get to me ＆ touch my heart. ♥. only you can make me feel.......loved, happy, sad, joy, beautiful, wonderful, like a woman, gentle, honest, comfortable. ＆ so MUCH MORE!
you will always remain in my ♥, you can NEVER forget your FIRST LOVE :-*.
signed Amanda Tatianna Alequin
