So lately I've been dreaming about my life after high school. And I'm scared as fuck! See I want to be something great and it scares me that I'm going to be leaving my family and going to a new state. My bestfriend doesnt want me to leave but I think its better if I get out there and learn things on my own. See I either want to be a Dentist, Nurse, Marnie Biogiost, or CSI. And I've learned you need to be very smart to be ANY of those. Which scares the crap out of me. Because not only am I scared of failing, I'm scared of not having enough money, or jnust being on my own.
I tell myself almost everyday that I will make it. That I will be something great and not to be scared. But I just go on back into my own little world where I'm with my mom and she does everything for me. Life cant go on like that. I cant count on my mom for every little thing that happens in my life. And I cant always think that when I dont know anything that I can run to her. See its always been me and her since i was little. Then came my step dad and my little brother. Sometimes I still has this idea that its just me and her. But then I look around and see boy toys EVERYWHERE.
College is a big step in any one's life. And if you WANT, THINK, OR TRY
to go any where in life you HAVE to go to college. There are a few people out there who dont got to college. There are even some who dont believe you have to go in order to get in life. WRONG! Everyone and anyone deserve's to go to college and should never have that taken away from them. I have a couple of colleges in mind like, Barry, University of Califronia Berkly, Seplmen, NYU, ULA, Duke, and many more. Im so scared that I dont have the grades. Freshmen and Sophmore year I had 85 averges and above but JR. year I sucked. =/. Something I'm not proud of. But JR. year I went threw a lot. I just want to make sure I'm a somebody and I make it on my own in life...
ONE OF MY BIGGEST FEARS IS FAILING....
