"I feel the salty waves come in. I feel them crash against my skin. And I smile as I respire because I know they'll never win.....Stop there and let me correct it. I wanna live a life from a new perspective. You come along because I love your face. And I'll admire your expensive taste. And who cares divine intervention. I wanna be praised from a new perspective, but leaving now would be a good idea. So catch me up im getting out of here......More to the point, I need to show. How much I can come and go. Other plans fell through. And put a heavy load on you. I know there's no more that need be said."
When I woke up this morning, I basically seen everything very differently. and the point that I didn't get was why? ... I guess when something that has a major impact on you, it wakes you up? out of this deep coma of pure fantasy that was never really there. maybe this perfect dream world , where everything couldn't go wrong. where the person you loved & thought loved you back could never rip your heart out & crush it. but in that moment when that all comes falling down you realize that maybe it was just a hopeless dream that you was stuck in... & maybe you should be happy your out of it? but if it was so good to be out of it why does this new world seem so cold. is that really life? is life all about hurting. cause if it is I don't want to be alive. you feel so many feelings so many things when you grow up. but when you feel love its like you've found the meaning of life. the meaning of everything. the true meaning of God. My religion teacher told me you don't know god until you've found love. so your telling me your first love is like God? like finding what it fully means to be alive? but what does it mean when that Love is gone?
whatever the case maybe I can't be sad.. I HAVE to be strong. if not for myself ... then for who ?
xoxo Amanda .
whatever the case maybe I can't be sad.. I HAVE to be strong. if not for myself ... then for who ?
xoxo Amanda .
