Try hiding the fact that you've been in a secret relationship to others. How would it make you feel? Being in love with some one and being in a relationship with some one is too different things. You can truly love some one from the bottom of your heart with out ever being involved with that person. But where do the two lines really meet? They say there is a thin line between love and hate, but where do you figure out which line is the line you've crossed?
Never in my wildness dreams did I ever think I'd truly be able to love after Kvon. But once I realized that a human being has so much love to give why stop at only one person? I remember when Kvon was cheating on his girlfriend with me and he told me "you can be in love with two people". Me knowing I wanted him to only myself thought it was lie. Little did I know later down the line while loving him so strongly so passionate that I fall for some one else. After telling Kvon that I was moving on to some one who I loved dearly he became in raged. Telling me we could never be friends or even talk. But why was it so fair for him to love two people and not me? I started to hate him for it. But I wouldn't let go of my true and unresolved feelings for him. This is where the first question comes back into play. Is it fair to really love some one and hate them at the same time. Can you love some one and just hate them for past experiences. I have a friend and she seems to always go back and do dumb things. I once was very much like her. It wasn't too long ago either. I've had friends, crushes, lovers, boyfriends, girlfriends, what ever you want to call it. I've had. And it took me that long to realize that you can very much love some one and hate them for what ever reason and keep loving them at the end. I'm not saying hey I still love Kvon, or that I hate him. What I'm saying is can you love some one and hate them at the same time?
Can you love some one for 6 months, with out any one knowing and hate the person because no one knows? Or do you hate the fact that you can't let your old ways go and just tell people you truly love this person. ... Where do the lines meet and end?
fights? >=D
Recently, a girl tried to fight me. Sadly she didn't. And I only say sadly because she caused a big scene for no reason. Meaning she made every one around her look and be apart of it and she did nothing. Funny thing was I wasn't scared. I don't care how big you are I will fight you. I don't care if you think that just because your taller then me and your a little more manly I should just back down? NO ! Not in my book. I was taught not to let any girl or female put fear into your heart. I'm not saying I'm not scared of my mom, but that's probably the only woman I'll ever be scared of. And for MANY different reasons.
So yeah she basically tried to fight me because I guess I embarrassed her in our gym in front of a couple of students. But hun don't think I'm going to back down because your voice gets a little higher. If any one knows me =] when I YELL, like really yell I sound like Stewie from Family Guy. LML. I'm so tired of these gangster girls. yawn*
So yeah she basically tried to fight me because I guess I embarrassed her in our gym in front of a couple of students. But hun don't think I'm going to back down because your voice gets a little higher. If any one knows me =] when I YELL, like really yell I sound like Stewie from Family Guy. LML. I'm so tired of these gangster girls. yawn*
xoxo Mandy
what's been new.
So as you guys know MOST of you I no longer talk to my EX best friend Giovana. Over a stupid boy thing. Which I can speak of now. One I honestly think she believed I WANTED her boyfriend. NO , NOT THAT ! NEVER would I want him. I wont even go in on the TYPE of low life he is, and I think it would be very pitty to indulge myself in such a minor and easily brush able subject or topic. But yeah WE ARE NO LONGER best friends, and I'm pretty cool with it. It's like once you see your SUPPOSEDLY best friend pick a 6 month boy over a 2 year friendship it slaps you in the face like a ton of bricks. I think I'd rather walk over broken glass before I pick a boy over friendship. But whatever that's how some "girls" are. DOA - in Ceylonni's words =].
After that Micaela tried to get involved. However, til this day I still don't understand her point or reason to get into the situation. Never did I ask her to get into it, I asked her a simple question, should I tell Giovanna or not? Giovanna went out her way to show Micaela unnameable things. NOT me, after asking Micaela the simple yes or no question. She claimed she didn't want to get into, but at the end of the day her mouth JUST HAD to be heard. And really I wasn't the one for it. But my beef wasn't with her. Because she's the type that really seeks attention, and my ass is the type to give some one what they want. BUT hold up NOT this time. My ass ignored her and went straight for Giovanna's head.
One, it wasn't your convo to show
Two, why are you proud to show people that convo
Three, stop telling BITCHES what's going on.
Like can't girls keep shyt to their selves? Has it really come to a day and age where woman can't have dis agreements among their own friends with out others getting involved? Must it really come to Micaela, Sade, Pagan, AND OTHERS , to really TRY to seek they way into it? ARE YOU GIRLS REALLY THAT BORED WITH YOUR LIVES?
Besides that the YEAR BOOK was deleted. And this is the part in the blog where I will PUT THINGS STRAIGHT. I, Amanda Tatianna Alequin DID NOT DELETE the year. Whether you LOW LIVES believe me or not! I DON'T WHAT YOU SAY EITHER! Why would I delete something I helped. Do some of you not remember my ass in Year Book Club trying to help find good Year Book covers? Oh I'm sorry that Giovanna's folder was deleted first but does that really make me the target of Britteny Webb and Pagan's words of "WISDOM" in the hallways and classrooms? If I REALLY WANTED TO DELETE the Year Book I would had been a smart cookie and deleted EVERY SINGLE class along with it. Every computer class period's folder would had been gone. But I'M SORRY that I'm TOO SMART for some of you SMA girls and that this STUPID ass person only deleted that one Class. I would had went above and beyond. It would had been ALL HELL in the hall ways of SMA. But NO0OO0O0OO just you little immature females don't think on your toes? Your too busy being hood rats. [giggle]
Please don't sit there and think I'm talking shyt, because I'm not! I'VE ALWAYS SAID THIS ALL. And a number of students have either seen or heard me saying it. So if you must go back in the school and feel some type of way by all means do so. This is MY BLOG, MY THOUGHTS, MY IDEAS, MY DREAM, MY WHATEVER I want it to be. If you PEOPLE don't like the fact I have a right to EXPRESS myself then you should go talk to your self in front of a mirror and figure out WHY YOU your self hate YOUR self. Because if you can destroy SOME ONE ART WORK, Tiffany, Pagan, AND BRITTENY WEBB, then it's jealously and self-hate. I'm sorry to be the one who has to tell you young ladies but yes YOUR JEALOUS, SCARED, AND YOU HATE. That has to be the reason.
Because why would you go out your way and ruin some one's VERY HARD WORK ? FOR WHAT REASON BRITTENY AND TIFFANY? Pagan IDC because she needs to feel cool. I guess her four years of SMA unknownment got to her and she needs to find ways to be involved with the I Hate Amanda group. That must of been the joy that day when PEOPLE turned against me. She must of really felt like she FINALLY had a place in SMA to belong. A place where half the people who once were my friends can now hate along with her. It must make her smile every day knowing that she has a group that can suck me off so much? Does it sweetheart? Are you proud that you belong to a group that hates on others and waste their time doing so? HA ! I guess so because your still apart of it.
I right this to vent and express my thoughts, THESE GIRLS THESE DAYS NEED TO SERIOUSLY GROW UP. I would love to sit here and pop beef about how much Ima kick someones ass OR DO SOMETHING TO THEM. BUT !!! I can wait =]
until next time. xoxo Amanda.
After that Micaela tried to get involved. However, til this day I still don't understand her point or reason to get into the situation. Never did I ask her to get into it, I asked her a simple question, should I tell Giovanna or not? Giovanna went out her way to show Micaela unnameable things. NOT me, after asking Micaela the simple yes or no question. She claimed she didn't want to get into, but at the end of the day her mouth JUST HAD to be heard. And really I wasn't the one for it. But my beef wasn't with her. Because she's the type that really seeks attention, and my ass is the type to give some one what they want. BUT hold up NOT this time. My ass ignored her and went straight for Giovanna's head.
One, it wasn't your convo to show
Two, why are you proud to show people that convo
Three, stop telling BITCHES what's going on.
Like can't girls keep shyt to their selves? Has it really come to a day and age where woman can't have dis agreements among their own friends with out others getting involved? Must it really come to Micaela, Sade, Pagan, AND OTHERS , to really TRY to seek they way into it? ARE YOU GIRLS REALLY THAT BORED WITH YOUR LIVES?
Besides that the YEAR BOOK was deleted. And this is the part in the blog where I will PUT THINGS STRAIGHT. I, Amanda Tatianna Alequin DID NOT DELETE the year. Whether you LOW LIVES believe me or not! I DON'T WHAT YOU SAY EITHER! Why would I delete something I helped. Do some of you not remember my ass in Year Book Club trying to help find good Year Book covers? Oh I'm sorry that Giovanna's folder was deleted first but does that really make me the target of Britteny Webb and Pagan's words of "WISDOM" in the hallways and classrooms? If I REALLY WANTED TO DELETE the Year Book I would had been a smart cookie and deleted EVERY SINGLE class along with it. Every computer class period's folder would had been gone. But I'M SORRY that I'm TOO SMART for some of you SMA girls and that this STUPID ass person only deleted that one Class. I would had went above and beyond. It would had been ALL HELL in the hall ways of SMA. But NO0OO0O0OO just you little immature females don't think on your toes? Your too busy being hood rats. [giggle]
Please don't sit there and think I'm talking shyt, because I'm not! I'VE ALWAYS SAID THIS ALL. And a number of students have either seen or heard me saying it. So if you must go back in the school and feel some type of way by all means do so. This is MY BLOG, MY THOUGHTS, MY IDEAS, MY DREAM, MY WHATEVER I want it to be. If you PEOPLE don't like the fact I have a right to EXPRESS myself then you should go talk to your self in front of a mirror and figure out WHY YOU your self hate YOUR self. Because if you can destroy SOME ONE ART WORK, Tiffany, Pagan, AND BRITTENY WEBB, then it's jealously and self-hate. I'm sorry to be the one who has to tell you young ladies but yes YOUR JEALOUS, SCARED, AND YOU HATE. That has to be the reason.
Because why would you go out your way and ruin some one's VERY HARD WORK ? FOR WHAT REASON BRITTENY AND TIFFANY? Pagan IDC because she needs to feel cool. I guess her four years of SMA unknownment got to her and she needs to find ways to be involved with the I Hate Amanda group. That must of been the joy that day when PEOPLE turned against me. She must of really felt like she FINALLY had a place in SMA to belong. A place where half the people who once were my friends can now hate along with her. It must make her smile every day knowing that she has a group that can suck me off so much? Does it sweetheart? Are you proud that you belong to a group that hates on others and waste their time doing so? HA ! I guess so because your still apart of it.
I right this to vent and express my thoughts, THESE GIRLS THESE DAYS NEED TO SERIOUSLY GROW UP. I would love to sit here and pop beef about how much Ima kick someones ass OR DO SOMETHING TO THEM. BUT !!! I can wait =]
until next time. xoxo Amanda.
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